Daily Wednesday

 

29/6/2022

Today I woke up and did not have breakfast. I watched a few videos on Youtube. I really don't know why I watched about League Of Legends. Perhaps it is because I miss the fun days I used to have playing the game with my friend that is not my friend anymore.

At noon, I found a blog about "Why I Quit Video Games and How You Can Too".

https://nicklafferty.com/blog/why-im-quitting-video-games-for-an-entire-year/

I am not in the best version of myself lately. I should feel much better that I can write about things and perhaps I am in the middle of rediscovering myself after I found that blog. Then I realized, I am in the verge of quitting video games and learning to write. I just feel so sad that I owe to myself about having much love for video games but it seems to be heading nowhere in my life. It also feels like I am about to chop off my own limb while thinking about quitting video games. Another reason for why I am so nervous all the time each day. I can feel that I am trying to transform myself into a better version in life. Its hard to explain.

I am trying to become a man (that is as closest adaptation). It is hard seeing everything moves very slowly in real life when in gaming, everything seems to be a lot more easier to get something. There is no on-demand clicks for things to happen, that's what I meant. While on other times, I feel like time moves too fast in life. Additionally, I am trying to not stress about not having a job. At least I received a call back from 7Eleven. Its not that I didn't try, they just don't want to employ me at the moment. What I said to Faz (the manager) specifically is it has been a long time since I had worked. The last time I worked was last year for one day which is volunteering. Additionally, the previous time when we met at the store, she asked and I said I used to work office jobs.

Alongside, there is also a side hustle that I could do which is in writing but first, I need to develop my skills. Or else, I just keep on delaying it. Another of the famous thing that people do to try and get money is become an entertainer at Bigo platform and others. I thought of it as becoming an influencer of some sort and do streaming. It is also relatable to becoming a brand ambassador.

I went out with my mom at night to get supper that were supposed a dinner. I had supper at home and then sleep.