Avoiding Stress

 10 October 2021

A day after adikku buat stress, went out with mom and dad just to have some breather. Did not speak much as usual and i just want to not think of stressful things my adik cause yesterday. He did not join. We went for ikan bakar melaka somewhere in kl. Even though I decided not to eat during the outing, I had a good time by being somewhere else rather than staying at home.

I hope I did not menyusahkan my mom about my sickness. Often times I wanted to talk about it but I just choose to enjoy the empty silence in my mind in hopes that I did not create any stressful situations while also she is taking care of my dad. Usual thoughts keep on playing while most times I sit back to relax. I think the medication did help but I do not know how else am I going to pull through all these thinking about life that I am happy but I do not know how to fix lots of questions such as if anything happens will I be able to survive alone. Also, every time I look at my parents taking medication, I have that thinking about how they are strong while mom taking care of me in ways she is always positive about things.

Is it normal to not talk much in a social situation? To look at other people, everything seems fine and normal like that.